Sunday, May 15, 2011

Used to Praying (translated)

Prayer has become my routine.

When dinner is served, naturally do my hands clasp in prayer, mumbling
"hallelujah in Jesus' name I pray, Hallelujah Amen."
Before bedtime, instinctively will I kneel in prayer, mouthing the same words "Hallelujah in Jesus' name I pray, thanks for Your grace, may You continue to keep and lead me. Have mercy on me. Your will be done. Amen."

The Church prayer is quite the same,
"Hallelujah in Jesus' name I pray, thank You and praise You Lord.
May You grant Your precious Holy Spirit to me so I become your good child. Hallelujah, mercy and help on me. Glory to God. Amen."

Prayer
has only become my routine.
An everyday act.
So natural and instinctive that I don't need to think TO DO it.
Thus, I've come to a level-up where I can do two things at once.
Something else is in my head, yet the words in my prayer remain skilfully consistent.

A memorized prayer.
Yet my heart wanders afar.
This has become my habit.

Recalling the past, the true communion I had with God
was long history.
Prayer has been degraded to a plain form of a Christian routine and code of conduct.


My prayer, has only been seen and heard by other people.
But my God, has also wandered afar.

My God has wondered afar, yet I am oblivious.
This bad habit is catastrophic, and I am ready to eliminate it!

Friday, May 13, 2011

习惯了祷告

祷告已成了我的习惯

饭菜一到
我自然地合起手,祷告说:“哈利路亚奉主耶稣圣明祷告,感谢主的恩典,哈利路亚,阿门。”

上床睡觉前
我自然地会跪下,祷告说:“哈利路亚奉主耶稣圣明祷告,感谢主的恩典,哈利路亚,求主继续带领,保佑,怜悯我,愿您的旨意成全。阿门”

教会聚会的祷告
也大同小异
“哈利路亚奉主耶稣圣明祷告,感谢赞美主耶稣,哈利路亚,求主赐下保贵的圣灵给我,让我成为您的乖孩子,哈利路亚,求主怜悯帮助我,一切荣耀归于主耶稣基督,哈利路亚,阿门。”

祷告
我习惯了
每天都是这样的重复着
我已经把祷告养成了习惯
我甚至练到了“一心二用”的境界
脑子在想别的事情,可口上还是一字一句的念着那已经背熟的祷告词。

每次跪下祷告的时候
很习惯的我便开始念那祷告词
然后开始想些别的事情来
这就是我每天的祷告习惯。

我最后一次跟神真正沟通
有是多年前的事了
我祷告习惯也只保持着基督徒的身份
可是我的神,不知道在哪儿了
我每天的祷告,只有别人看见


我的神都已经背着我离去,我却还不知道

这坏习惯,必须铲除~!

Saturday, May 7, 2011

一位宗教教员的心声

我是一间小教会的其中一名宗教教员
是一位非常失败的教员。

当初的那三把火,已熄灭了。。。
当初满满的自信,全烧完了。。。
我以为这份工很容易
我以为我能把这些羊宝宝们养得肥肥胖胖
我以为我能成为一位有趣的好老师
可是,
我有心有力,却不知道该怎么办!
我想教好他们
我还年轻力壮
但是我却不知该怎么做才好!

我只想在每一堂课成功地把神的信息传达给每一位学生
可是我传达的方式对他们来说好像很枯燥乏味。怎么办?
我想了许多法子,可是全用尽了。。。
没了。。。我不是很创意的人。
我耗尽了那三把火就不再有火了。。。
彻底熄灭了。。。
彻底的失败了。。。
非常对不起神。。。 =(

怎么办?