Used to Praying (translated)

Prayer has become my routine.

When dinner is served, naturally do my hands clasp in prayer, mumbling
"hallelujah in Jesus' name I pray, Hallelujah Amen."
Before bedtime, instinctively will I kneel in prayer, mouthing the same words "Hallelujah in Jesus' name I pray, thanks for Your grace, may You continue to keep and lead me. Have mercy on me. Your will be done. Amen."

The Church prayer is quite the same,
"Hallelujah in Jesus' name I pray, thank You and praise You Lord.
May You grant Your precious Holy Spirit to me so I become your good child. Hallelujah, mercy and help on me. Glory to God. Amen."

Prayer
has only become my routine.
An everyday act.
So natural and instinctive that I don't need to think TO DO it.
Thus, I've come to a level-up where I can do two things at once.
Something else is in my head, yet the words in my prayer remain skilfully consistent.

A memorized prayer.
Yet my heart wanders afar.
This has become my habit.

Recalling the past, the true communion I had with God
was long history.
Prayer has been degraded to a plain form of a Christian routine and code of conduct.


My prayer, has only been seen and heard by other people.
But my God, has also wandered afar.

My God has wondered afar, yet I am oblivious.
This bad habit is catastrophic, and I am ready to eliminate it!