Procrastinate

"I am not feeling guilty at all. I am feeling so fine. I am so selfish. I should be guilty for not trying harder to save him."

It is a strange and ineffable emotion; a struggle to define one's guilt.

"He was a good man." But a curse seemed to befall him with cruel calamities,
"But he ended up weeping to himself every night because he had a family he could not love, food but he could not feed himself, legs that could not walk, mouth that could not talk," He was suffering from stroke.

"I promised him in our first prayer that I would read him testimonies but..."
I procrastinated.
He was a Buddhist, like the rest of the family.
But he might just gain hope if I offered him the salvation gospel months ago as I promised in my first bold prayer with him.

"I brought my guitar but didn't share hymns with him." as I had initially planned.
I wanted him to hear and sing (in his heart or anything) so he might enjoy the sweet melody of praise. But I met with some small obstacles and dismissed my attempt. And said 'maybe next time.'

"He died crying helplessly to himself even if he had wanted to know Christ" to gain hope, peace, love and salvation.

He passed away the past Monday, abruptly.
This was an unbearable loss for most of his family members because he was a good man.

Jesus could help him, certainly; The Holy Spirit could have comforted him;
"How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them?"(Rom10:14)

He might have wanted to say to me "'Well, how could I, unless someone guides me?' And he invited Philip to come up and sit with him.(Acts 8:31)

I didn't cease the time and opportunity, and they both slipped away secretly.



"Men of Galilee,” they said, “why do you stand here looking into the sky?..."
"But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth."(Acts 1:)

Let's not procrastinate and allow yourself to fall into this dilemma and regret.
May God lead us and add us courage to do His will.